I'm back!
The trip went smoothly from an organizational point of view.
However, there was another issue that’s now forcing me to adjust my plans.
I’ve been dealing with a rather unpleasant and painful infection for the past few days. To be honest and not shy about it, I seem to have developed a urinary tract infection due to a weakened immune system. It was really bothering me during the whole trip — burning and pain that wouldn’t let up. But once I returned, got some rest, drank lots of chamomile tea and water through the night, and then slept a bit more in the morning, the pain eased.
Still, it might just feel better because I’ve been drinking an abnormal amount of water to flush things out and avoid discomfort. Every evening after drinking lots of fluids, I’d feel better — but in the morning after not drinking overnight, things would get worse again. So I’m worried that even if I don’t feel much pain right now, the infection could still be present and potentially spread to my kidneys — which would be much more serious.
So I’ve mustered up the courage and signed up for a doctor’s appointment today. I hope they’ll get back to me, so I can get some tests done and start proper treatment to prevent anything from getting worse.
Going to the doctor is always hard and scary for me. Don’t be like me — take care of yourselves early.
Oh — and right before I was about to leave the house yesterday, my bedroom floor flooded again… heavy rain came through the wall under the window, just like last year. Even though someone supposedly fixed it back then. So I ended up mopping up a mini flood in a rush, right before leaving.
#skinny #teen #tiny #petite #small #egirl #altgirl #goth #gamergirl #cosplay #geek
Right now I’m in another country, and this post was scheduled in advance. And there’s also a little story here :3
Feels like I’m recording an answering machine message in case someone calls :D
But honestly, I’m a bit worried that I won’t have the energy to post anything when I return, so I’ll only be able to share how everything went on May 4. I’m sure future iShyNya will be doing fine, even though the iShyNya writing this on May 2 is still feeling nervous.
Most likely, I’m on a bus and asleep right now
Let me tell you about a weird little skill I have!
Back in school, I hated sleeping during the day — and even at night sometimes. I’d rather be playing something or creating something.
Later, when I went to university (yep, I have a bachelor’s degree if you didn’t know!), I had to wake up at 5 AM because the commute was super long… but I still stayed up very late. I often slept just 2–3 hours, sometimes not at all. That’s when I learned to sleep standing, sitting — anywhere really — and during any break, even while waiting during exams.
Since then, if I’m doing okay, I can fall asleep pretty much anytime and anywhere.
Now I love going to bed at 10 PM and waking up before sunrise. There’s nothing more magical than seeing the dawn while the world is still asleep and the birds are singing and going about their business.
And once again, the wonderful Frieren
The feeling of despair is behind me. The strange and unpleasant sensations in my body are gone too.
Tonight, I’m traveling to another country and then back to Thailand to extend my stay here one last time for this trip. So right now, I’m only feeling a bit of anxiety and tiredness, but otherwise I’m okay.
In about two months, I’ll return to my home country to visit my family. I also plan to try applying for a digital nomad visa. It’s not the easiest task, but it would make life here more legal and peaceful. I hope it works out — I’ll have enough time to focus on it then.
All matters with fansly are on hold until May 4. On May 4, I’ll resume communication, finish custom requests, and hopefully return to the recent work rhythm that got disrupted.
I’m sorry for making you miss me and worry while I was sick and going through emotional struggles. Please wait just a little longer while I take care of this important step to extend my stay — and then I’ll be back with you again!
A photo with water droplets and a sad text about me
Yesterday I was very wrong to think I was feeling better — in both ways.
Not long after posting, I had a nervous breakdown, and the next morning (today), my physical condition got worse too.
But I think the emotional collapse hit me even harder. I desperately wanted to distract myself with something. I thought about playing games or watching a movie, a cartoon, videos, the news — anything — but everything just felt unbearably boring and meaningless. I wandered from place to place. Tried things, got frustrated, went to bed, tried to rest or sleep, then moved to the living room and sat there trying to do something, then went out on the balcony and just stared into the distance. Over and over again. The sense of meaninglessness and boredom kept growing until I couldn’t take it anymore — tears just started pouring down my face like waterfalls. I don’t remember when I fell asleep, but I woke up with a swollen face.
Today there’s no sense of hopelessness anymore, but something else is there — hard to describe.
And I think I had some kind of vegetative nervous reaction today for the first time, but I’m not sure. If I don’t feel better tomorrow, I’ll go see a doctor.
Anyway, things are really hard for me right now.
And the day after tomorrow, I’m leaving for a border run. Why do I get sick every time before a border run? It’s a mystery.
In any case, I’m not looking for advice right now — it’s hard for me to process — and I’m not expecting anything special. Just keeping you updated.
I’m not even sure what this is.
I found this video and… that’s the full length of it. lol.
Looks like I was trying to take a photo and accidentally recorded a video instead?
Well, whatever. Let’s just leave it here...
Hi there!
I'm starting to feel better.
This morning was rough though, and I got scared that a secondary infection might have kicked in — but thankfully it turned out to be temporary.
I spent most of the day gathering my thoughts, and here I am!
Mentally I still feel a bit lost and unmotivated, but after a short walk, things feel lighter.
Tomorrow I need to plan my upcoming border run, and also take care of a few other small tasks.
Oh — and I think I’ve found a method that works for me right now so new photos don’t make me feel down. I just alternate between forgotten recent pictures and some new ones. That’s what I ended up doing today.
Frieren - Extra pics
It's the perfect time to share this so you won’t get too bored while I’m a bit less active :3
Honestly, I’m truly happy doing what I do.
Yes, I sometimes complain to you about not liking my recent content, or feeling tired, or pouring in a lot of effort that might not even be visible — and I don’t always have a ton of material.
But I absolutely love cosplaying and creating different outfits. I enjoy setting up the lighting, planning the look, searching for the right poses. I love the feeling of becoming someone else in these characters. I love the whole process of creating content. I really do!
Every time I feel a flutter of excitement, and I put my whole heart into what I create. I want to keep getting better at it, and both the result and the process matter deeply to me — even if something doesn’t make it into the final frame or goes unnoticed, it still matters to me.
And what matters just as much is knowing that there are people who appreciate me and my efforts.
Thank you all so much
Here’s a fun mirror photo!
I took a nap during the day and I'm feeling a bit better now, so don’t worry — I don’t have any serious symptoms at the moment, mostly just weakness and a few mildly unpleasant sensations.
Maybe that’s why I haven’t been able to fully appreciate my content yesterday and today?
Good morning everyone :3
For some reason, today I don't like almost all of my recently content, apparently something with perception. I like myself in the mirror today, but not in the photos. This happens when I see too much of my latest work, the old ones always seem better than the new ones, because I haven't seen it for a long time and I watch it with fresh eyes
In addition, at the moment when I create the outfit, I like the way it looks ad infinitum, and when I have been taking photos and videos for many hours and then preparing the photos, sorting them into folders, etc., the image seems too boring
Almost all the time I encounter this, but this time it is stronger than usual.
I don't ask for compliments, they won't help change my perception, over time it goes away on its own
But I think this video is not so bad
Soon I'm going back to Border Run. last. Then I'll go home to see my family
#skinny #tiny #petite #teen #cute #cosplay #egirl #gamergirl #animegirl
Good morning everyone!
I didn't randomly choose a video with my feet for today :3
Yesterday I bought new shoes and tried them out in the park!
Originally, I planned to try them on in the store first and then order online (because it was cheaper — the website had an extra discount, and these shoes aren’t cheap). I just needed to find the right size.
But once I figured out my size, I found out that it was already sold out online — though the store still had one pair left in stock.
So I asked if they could somehow adjust it so I could complete my online order, and I even showed them my cart on their website. And can you believe it — they gave me the same discount right there in the store! So I was able to buy the shoes immediately and start wearing them right away.
Naturally, I headed straight to the park to walk and exercise a little.
At first, my leg muscles felt a bit awkward, but my feet were so happy! And overall, I absolutely loved the experience. Plus, the shoes are really beautiful :3
Thank you all so much! Today's video is here to celebrate my happy feet!
#feet #foot #soles #cosplay #egirl #altgirl #gamergirl #petite #teen #tiny
New cosplaaay
Frieren became a goth
I spent a long time thinking about which elf girl I wanted to cosplay this time.
It’s been quite a while since I last photographed an elf — and I really love elves...
I was planning to redo my Greater Lord Rukkhadevata cosplay, but I wanted to do it in nature, so that one is still waiting for its moment — when I find a place with beautiful nature and no people.
Then I saw a gothic version of Frieren on Twitter and realized that this was exactly what I’d been looking for!
I really like this character, and changing her style is just a good way to look at Frieren from a different angle. So the decision was made, and I went to dig through my closet — clothes, stockings, and so on — and finally settled on a pretty simple but striking look.
If you haven’t watched the anime about Frieren yet, I highly recommend it!
heeey!
I'm working hard today:3
a bit of a confusing day, but creating the content was like a healing experience
I hope you're having a great day, and I'm off to continue making magic :3
And this video is from the first hotel in Bangkok. I don't know why this shelf is needed, but I, like a cat who wants to climb into the box, could not help but pay attention to this shelf
In fact, I was sure that the video was ruined because of the quality... But then I thought it was still cute. However, there are very few fragments, but it's here
#cute #cosplay #ass #teasing #stockings #legs #young #skinny #tiny #petite
full version without abrupt change of short frames :3
I loved seeing how simple posing looks in motion now, it's kind of more alive, so now I want to do it more often and post parts of the work, and I can also show you what everything else looks like, light and so on(This is not in this video, just plans for the future)
For example, this photoset involved 2 phones, several tripods, a mirror, and chairs that are trying to help the mirror not fly away. But I also often use multiple lights, even on the balcony.
This time I will not ask, it seems that you are happy with any ideas and I am grateful to you for it :3
I also have a similar short video from a trip to Bangkok, but the quality is not very good due to poor lighting, but I think I will upload this too, maybe... If you like this video, then I will download the video from the hotel in Bangkok :3
Digging through old materials yesterday, while I did not have the Internet, I came across a video of an old photo set, the photos have long been published, but I think about posting a small cut and you can see how I pose:3
Will you be interested?
Here is a small example :
#skinny #tiny #small #egirl #petite #teen #cute #cosplay #ass #teasing
Good morning, everyone!
Thank you so much for the post purchases and the tips!
It’s actually kind of funny — I got several times more in tips than in purchases, I thought it would be the other way around x)
But now I have enough for proper shoes! I hope I can go for a fitting and place the order today
Good news — the internet is back
Last night I waited for it until 1 a.m., and then I just fell asleep.
When I went out for a walk, I saw some workers dealing with the cables and thought the repair would be quicker.
Still, I used the time to work on a few videos I hadn’t gotten around to, sorted through some photos I had, and watched a movie I had downloaded on my computer — The Nightmare Before Christmas.
It felt like a bit of a lost day, but not a pointless one
I lost the Internet, apparently there was some kind of cable break. I wanted to prepare photos and videos for the posts for the future while I don't have the Internet, but now my laptop tries to reboot endlessly
I'm late with the daytime photo shoot today, so I'll try to do an evening one
My mobile Internet is very limited and I am afraid to spend all the traffic for today, so for now I will be offline
Have a wonderful day, everyone!
Yay, feet photos!
It’s been such a long time since I’ve done this kind of content — so I decided to make a separate little set with wet feet and, in general, to start giving more attention to different body zones :3
Honestly, I thought that PPV would be a great way to raise funds for proper shoes — to help heal my feet and get custom insoles and some good-quality training tools.
But first, I want to buy comfortable shoes just for walking. I have running shoes, but it’s too early for that — and it turns out walking actually needs completely different footwear.
My mood is amazing, and today I’m planning to shoot another photoset! There’s just so much I want to do!!
I’m trying not to buy new costumes for now and to create content with what I already have — because even here in Thailand, my collection feels kind of huge
Also, I have body tapes — so I can even build my own outfits straight from the ideas in my head!
I really hope I have enough energy for everything!
Hey everyone!!!
In this photoset, I was shooting myself with a water gun! But it was so hot that the water evaporated way too fast — so I ended up spraying myself more than actually taking photos or videos, but it was a lot of fun!
Consider this a slightly late Songkran post :3
I’m in such a good mood, my body feels great again, and the weather outside is amazing.
Right after I woke up, I ran to start filming and taking pictures.
Actually, I even ended up in a real Songkran celebration before this — there’s just no way to avoid it, and I was completely soaked x)
#water #skinny #teen #tiny #young #lingerie #alt #altgirl #goth #petite
hey hey!
just a few important words that I try not to forget, maybe someone will also find it useful
The thoughts in your head are not you. You are the one who chooses between these thoughts, who cuts off unnecessary thoughts, and makes important and useful ones the main ones.
If some thought harms you, you should understand whether you want it and cut it off every time. Otherwise, the whole head will be filled with the wrong thoughts
#skinny #tiny #small #fyp #video #petite #teen #cosplay #animegirl
Something experimental, I just wanted to do it
By the way, did you notice a few drops on my body in the first photo? In fact, I sweated a lot when I took a photo and this is my sweat, I used to be ashamed of this, but now it's even cute
#skinny #tiny #small #fyp #cosplay #teen #anime #animegirl #egirl
It's been a while since I just... talked here.
Sometimes I overthink what to post, but today I just wanna say hi~
Did you know that in Thai, '555' means laughing?
Because 5 is pronounced 'ha'.
So when I type 555 it's like hahaha
I think that's cute~
What's something random from your language that always makes you smile?
Let's talk about small things today 👉🏻👈🏻
I finally did it! I’ve been planning this photoset for so long.
And yes — this is the costume you gifted me a year ago… I’m so incredibly grateful for the chance to try on this character. I did my best to bring it to life with this setting — and with myself.
You help me so much and truly make my life better!
Also — look at the plant!! The big one on the right, that’s the one! The one I wrote about yesterday. My new plant-friend really helped bring this photoset together. I hope it likes its new home here 🌿
To be honest, I almost had a little accident trying to strike an unusual pose. I sat kind of weirdly on the ottoman and leaned back to get the shot… and suddenly started falling fast. My arms saved my head and back from hitting the floor, but I landed on my back side, and my hands ended up in a strange, awkward position trying to hold my body up.
While I was mid-fall, I remember thinking how scared I was about what I’d feel next. The muscles started hurting sharply and they still do — but other than that, I’m okay.
Something similar happened before when I slipped in the shower, so the feeling is familiar — I just need rest and some protein
I’m sorry, but I’m incredibly tired today, and I’m not sure if I picked good photos — or if they’ve already been posted before. But I think they haven’t.
Honestly, posing lets you transform your body in interesting ways — like making hips look fuller and so on. In one photo my legs look like sticks, and in another I can almost see what curvy hips would look like on me.
So why tired? It all started with a simple plan: I just wanted to go to the flower market and buy a small plant for home. But I ended up crossing the whole city with a huge plant that’s just a little shorter than me. The moment I saw it, I just couldn’t hold myself back.
But I’m really happy — now I have a plant friend. I’ll take good care of it! I want to give it a name, and I’ve already studied everything about how to care for it. Right now, my friend is resting after being repotted
Of course this post is cosplay and not foot content but still I am very pleased that there are some of you who like my foots and here's why:
Lately, I’ve been dealing with some foot-related issues that actually go back to my childhood. I was a very active and sporty kid — even tried ballet — but I started noticing that my feet would cramp whenever I pointed my toes. It turns out, this was an early sign of deeper biomechanical problems that I never fully understood until now.
after a detailed examination, I found out that I have:
Transverse flat feet – the front part of my foot is flattened, which causes pressure to shift toward the second and third toes.
Overpronation, especially on my left foot – my foot rolls inward more than it should, affecting my posture and balance.
A weakened longitudinal arch – my arch is functionally collapsed due to chronic overload.
A weight imbalance between my legs – my left foot carries more load, causing compensation through my hips and knees.
The beginning of hallux valgus – the big toe starts to drift inward.
Cramping and sensitivity in my feet – especially during certain activities like biking or stretching.
All of this affects more than just how I walk. It influences my knees, hip alignment, posture, and even how I feel in everyday movements.
I'm now focusing on daily walks, supportive shoes, soft massage techniques, and strengthening exercises to rebuild stability step by step.
It’s a long process, but it feels good to finally understand what’s going on.
I was examined a year ago, but I received a detailed consultation only now. if you remember, I bought running shoes, but it's better not to run and jump yet
I very often have pain in my feet and even massaging my feet with hands is It hurts a lot... When I go for a massage, I always ask not to touch my feet, otherwise the pain will last for several days. I used to think that the massage therapist did the massage incorrectly, but it was about me
