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2021-08-03 00:53:10 +0000 UTC View Post

I think I feel comfortable discussing my mental illness on m..

I think I feel comfortable discussing my mental illness on my onlyfans page because kink and fetishism have both played vital, cathartic roles in my recovery. I don’t feel ashamed about how my body processes trauma anymore, and I am so glad that sex work gave me a route to explore my sexual PTSD. Having this platform has encouraged me to embrace my body, to have faith in setting boundaries, especially when play drifts into pain & self harm. I’ve pushed limits, reclaimed self admiration & learnt how to adore my body. What a magical vessel I have. I love it. I thank you all for being on this journey. If you ever feel like you aren’t useful to anyone, and trust me, I know this feeling far too well, let it be known that you have helped me. You have given me a space to liberate properly. Each day I become closer to the version of myself I want to become and I am glad you are here for the ride. Another thank you for supporting sex workers and models by paying. We all know there is a wealth of porn on the internet which you can access for free and yet here you are, pursuing me. Last year I was thousands in debt, praying for my own place with my dog, praying for help. This job and your support gave it to me. Thank you. I hope I do you proud. X

2021-08-02 23:48:04 +0000 UTC View Post

I lean over and get close to you. What you gonna do first?

2021-08-02 20:02:24 +0000 UTC View Post

Trigger warning: mental illness, overdose, bl00d, self harm ..

Trigger warning: mental illness, overdose, bl00d, self harm Hi everyone, I want to tell you about my mental breakdown which happened in the early hours of Friday morning. I hope this is ok to share, I feel like it is my safest platform to discuss what has happened to me the last few days. Plus, I know your secrets so perhaps it is time to share mine. I picked up a drink on Thursday. Most of you will be aware that I decided to go sober in April because alcohol gets me into unsafe situations. For some reason I thought that last Thursday would be different. It wasn’t. It was all fun & games until I got home and reflected on the evening. I’d been embarrassing, aggressive & excessive, and when I arrived home it hit me that I had relapsed in quite a major way. I guess the guilt and shame of the situation made me feel like I needed to end my life. I woke up Friday evening in the Intensive Care Unit after taking a fatal over dose. I’d been sedated since I was picked up by paramedics. My blo0d pressure was life threateningly low, but an IV could not be inserted because all of my veins collapsed. This meant I had a line connected directly into my shin bone, a pain I thankfully avoided at the time but certainly can feel now. I couldn’t breathe without assistance & I had a catheter inserted to drain the toxins from my body. Waking up in this situation was heartbreaking. My mother was warned that I wasn’t likely to last the night. Today has been the first day I can think at least a little clearer. I feel lost in limbo. Knowing I was so close to saying goodbye to the world and yet still being here feels bittersweet. I have holes all across my body where doctors and nurses must have frantically tried to attach a drip. I don’t know where to begin on processing this. I appreciate that I am here to provide porn and perhaps you are not interested in me outside of what I can produce, but I needed to get this out. Work is very important to me, and financial debt has been a reason I have made attempts on my life in the past. It makes me so nervous that my income can falter, despite me knowing full well I need time off to get better. If you have read this far, thank you. The last few days I have felt like I am screaming into the void, so thank you for making that void seem less scary. Maybe I am praying to god, to someone, to show me how to cope & what to stick around for. Mental illness has a funny way of kicking you when you are down. Thank you to those of you who have messaged me already, and to those who ask what you can do to help, please buy my content & tip me whatever you can. Scroll through our DMs and maybe buy a video that takes your fancy! It will take the edge off this anxiety. I love you for being here. Mental health matters.

2021-08-02 19:16:55 +0000 UTC View Post

Hey, I am online ✨ I hope you missed me the last couple days..

Hey, I am online ✨ I hope you missed me the last couple days!

2021-08-02 18:47:47 +0000 UTC View Post

Hi everyone, there are slight delays on replying to messages..

Hi everyone, there are slight delays on replying to messages as I have only just been discharged from Intensive Care Unit. Please keep me in thoughts. Addiction almost beat me this tine.

2021-08-01 00:24:58 +0000 UTC View Post

This picture makes me believe that the stairway to heaven is..

This picture makes me believe that the stairway to heaven is just the shortcut route to my cunt.

2021-07-29 19:42:05 +0000 UTC View Post

Sometimes I look a pictures of my boobs and think, “why the ..

Sometimes I look a pictures of my boobs and think, “why the fuck would I hide these? They are glorious!” This picture evokes that response. Fuck. What a pair!

2021-07-29 19:09:25 +0000 UTC View Post

Special thanks to the subscribers who tip when they like con..

Special thanks to the subscribers who tip when they like content and when they message me. ❤️ Considering the plethora of content I share for a low sub price, it is nice to be reminded that some of you truly appreciate the time & effort that goes into this. I see ya & I love ya. X

2021-07-29 17:30:02 +0000 UTC View Post

✨ Lil update ✨ you know i like a gossip x

2021-07-29 16:52:13 +0000 UTC View Post

Omg i look incredible????

2021-07-29 16:06:04 +0000 UTC View Post

When i return from my nap, what do ya want?

2021-07-29 14:38:36 +0000 UTC View Post

This is what I wore to court. It obviously was cute enough a..

This is what I wore to court. It obviously was cute enough as I was let off lightly! I will update properly later. I need a small nap. I didnt sleep until past 5am and was up at 8am to leave! Tired girly. I love you x

2021-07-29 14:33:23 +0000 UTC View Post

I have a court appearance this morning. Please keep me in yo..

I have a court appearance this morning. Please keep me in your thoughts 💕 I am nervous as hell

2021-07-29 07:27:35 +0000 UTC View Post

30 mins till 50% off sale ends! Come see what I do when I..

*30 mins till 50% off sale ends!* Come see what I do when I think nobody is watching

2021-07-28 23:14:34 +0000 UTC View Post

video sale ends in 1 hour! This is my favourite content..

**video sale ends in 1 hour!** This is my favourite content I have ever created so treat me and treat yourself! Thanks for the feedback so far, I love how it has made you feel. *normally $50*

2021-07-28 22:44:01 +0000 UTC View Post

I am feeling playful tonight 🥰

2021-07-28 22:43:11 +0000 UTC View Post

video sale 1.5hrs left *“This video made me feel like I..

**video sale 1.5hrs left** *“This video made me feel like I was perving on you, but then I fell in love. With my dick in my hand, of course.”* Normally $50.

2021-07-28 22:14:27 +0000 UTC View Post

video sale 2 hours left This video almost shows me fall..

**video sale 2 hours left** This video almost shows me falling in love with myself, because I see how fucking exquisite my body is, and I know that from a touch I can make it feel electric. Normally $50.

2021-07-28 21:43:59 +0000 UTC View Post

feels like i am the only horny person online ???

2021-07-28 21:40:17 +0000 UTC View Post

video sale for 2.5 hrs!!! I created a mini episode abou..

**video sale for 2.5 hrs!!!** I created a mini episode about what it means to me to be soft & strong. It’s sexy. It’s pervy. It’s beautiful. I love how I am slutty & classy simultaneously. Normally $50.

2021-07-28 21:09:46 +0000 UTC View Post

Things I like about this picture: 1) the colour of my lips 2..

Things I like about this picture: 1) the colour of my lips 2) the shadows across my body 3) the delicate curls of my hair 4) the perfect fall of my head scarf 5) the plumpness of my breasts 6) my tattoos! They look lovely 7) the colour of lingerie matching the backdrop What do you like?

2021-07-28 20:35:23 +0000 UTC View Post