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I have a lot of people saying me being open about my mental ..

I have a lot of people saying me being open about my mental health is making them feel less alone n I really love that a lot 🥺🩷 SO- how open do y’all genuinely want me to be about my mental health LOL I don’t want to word vom my struggles or mental disorders on here too much if ya aren’t interested but I also really would like to show you guys you are not alone at aaaaallll and you got a crazy lady walking that path with you haha ^_^ 🫶

I was put on this Earth to help and heal others, not to take..

I was put on this Earth to help and heal others, not to take, manipulate, or use. I am CERTAIN that is the purpose I was given, and I plan to bring that to this platform heavily. 🩷 something has to change!! And someone has to start that change. I feel it in my heart that I’m being called to do that

Another perfect beautiful day to ingest stimulants and stare..

Another perfect beautiful day to ingest stimulants and stare at my butt! 🫶

As well as being a genuine lil sweetheart I am also often a ..

As well as being a genuine lil sweetheart I am also often a difficult, unstable, and clinically insane woman. And that’s okay. This is actually very endearing to the right person

So it seems you guys get a week free when I go from a free t..

So it seems you guys get a week free when I go from a free to paid page lol! 😅 just wanted to give you a heads up as I’m getting a lot of messages about not being able to subscribe- May 24th is what it’s showing me for when most of your subscriptions expire! 🩷
Will send a message out about this tomorrow!

Some of my bear friends 🩷🐻 when I say I live in a forest, I ..

Some of my bear friends 🩷🐻 when I say I live in a forest, I mean it literally 😂
Last vid was terrifying, he looked right at me 😂😭

Saw this sweet baby out my bedroom window and had to go say ..

Saw this sweet baby out my bedroom window and had to go say hello 🥹🩷🦉

Today is the daaay!! 🥳🩷 the $10 monthly subscription will go..

Today is the daaay!! 🥳🩷 the $10 monthly subscription will go into effect TODAY! I will send a mass message about it after it’s done but you should also get a notification saying my profile went from free to $10!
Unarchiving posts and extra spicy nudies will be happening as soon as it changes 😎

Thank you guys for the lovely stream!! ^_^ it’s always such ..

Thank you guys for the lovely stream!! ^_^ it’s always such a pleasure to hangout with y’all 🩷 I’m really loving these super chill, deep, authentic community focused streams. Super good vibes 🥹🩷

Hi guys gonna get on Twitch in abouuuut 20 min! (1:30pm PST!..

Hi guys gonna get on Twitch in abouuuut 20 min! (1:30pm PST!) 🩷 twitch.tv/octaviaslays

What ya guys think of mine n Zeppys fallout cosplay? 😎🩷 the ..

What ya guys think of mine n Zeppys fallout cosplay? 😎🩷 the only reason I have a GSD is bc of Dogmeat 🙈

I miss himmm 🥺😓

I miss himmm 🥺😓

Gonna be on Twitch in about 45 min! (1:30pm PST) will be fin..

Gonna be on Twitch in about 45 min! (1:30pm PST) will be finishing painting my bedroom and also doing a deep clean 😆🩷
Twitch.tv/octaviaslays

A requested vid from a good pal 🫶 SIDE NOTE: if you request/..

A requested vid from a good pal 🫶 SIDE NOTE: if you request/ask for something politely/respectfully, it isn’t some elaborate thing (such as photos, a 30 second clip, etcccc), and you’ve become a friend to me, there’s a very good chance I’ll do it and post it for free! 🤯 crazy right
If I’ve seen your name for YEARS across multiple platforms I’ve been on, your chance goes up exponentially higher 🤣
Why would I take from those that have supported me the most? Seems silly and selfish if you ask me 🫶
Hope you guys have an absolutely fantastic day! ^_^

Good morning!! 😇🩷

Good morning!! 😇🩷

Goodnight!! 🫶

Goodnight!! 🫶

Logging on Twitch in 10, come hang out while I paint and do ..

Logging on Twitch in 10, come hang out while I paint and do tasks! 😆🫶 twitch.tv/octaviaslays

Edit; thank you guys for a wonderful stream!! I really enjoyed spending time with those of you that came to hangout and chat! ^_^ 🩷

Hiii guys so it has been decided- my monthly subscription wi..

Hiii guys so it has been decided- my monthly subscription will be $10. I want to be fair to everyone and that seems like a fair price to me! 🩷 I’m going to start it at the end of this week, so from now until then I’ll be showing you what my page will be like from here on out (although I won’t be posting super explicit content until AFTER the subscription has started) 🩷
Hope that makes sense!! 😇🫶

I love matching ^_^ ehehe

I love matching ^_^ ehehe

Gotta get all the paint off of meeee 😆

Gotta get all the paint off of meeee 😆

Booooobieeees 🍒

Booooobieeees 🍒

Goodnight pals!! 🫶

Goodnight pals!! 🫶

Help me decide on the price for my monthly subscription pls!..

Help me decide on the price for my monthly subscription pls!! 🩷
I am stuck on either $10 or $15. I want to do $10 bc I know the economy sucks and also the exchange rate for my Canadian pals is awful so I want to make it easier for everyone
But also I won’t be doing ppvs so the $15 I feel like would help offset that??
I dont know! I would love to know your guys honest opinions!! 🩷 also pls vote only if you actually plan on subscribing!

Someone said to me today “you treat your community as equals..

Someone said to me today “you treat your community as equals not fans” and that hit me really hard- I feel like it’s such a true statement and I never really thought of it like that before 🥺
You guys are human beings that I genuinely appreciate and want to give kindness and support to, I absolutely love streaming cause I get to hangout with everyone, I love inside jokes, I light up when I see a familiar name on my screen, I just look forward to being around you guys as my actual friends not people just looking at me like I’m not human, or I’m special or something lol. News flash, I am not 😂 AND WE ARE EQUALS/PALS/FRIENDS 🥹🩷 AS IT SHOULD BE!

Did you guys miss ME?? Back to my annoying yappy self!! 😂

Streaming on Twitch shortly if anyone wants to come keep me ..

Streaming on Twitch shortly if anyone wants to come keep me company while I paint my house!! 🩷 twitch.tv/octaviaslays

Just want to say all the messages I’ve gotten as responses t..

Just want to say all the messages I’ve gotten as responses to my last post have brought me to tears (in a good way)
I been struggling for so long silently, seeing that you guys have my back and are willing to hold me up while I fall apart and help me get back to myself is saving my life, and I mean that literally. 🥺 I have many mental illnesses that make just existing hard on its own so the non stop hustle and feeling disconnected has made it significantly more difficult to function like a normal person, I wasn’t sure how much longer I’d be able to hold on 😭

Lots of love to you all, seriously 😭🩷

‼️ IMPORTANT: PLEASE READ ‼️Hey my loves. My dudes, my pals,..

‼️ IMPORTANT: PLEASE READ ‼️

Hey my loves. My dudes, my pals, my guys. It’s meeee. And I’ve got something I really need to say—and a question I want to ask. I’m gonna be honest and vent for a sec, so if you’re not in the mood for that, just scroll to the bottom for the question haha ^_^

This past week has been one of the hardest for me mentally. I’ve always tried to be open about my mental health bc I don’t want to hide behind a mask. My mental health is collapsing and right now I feel like I’ve completely lost myself

Somewhere along the way I started compromising on my values. On who I am. And if you’ve been here since the beginning I think you might’ve felt that too

I’ve always prioritized connection over profit. I’ve never liked the pressure to constantly push for more sales or squeeze money out of people, it’s never been who I am. That kind of energy makes me feel gross. Like I’m not a person anymore, just a product.

I miss feeling like me here. I miss feeling like you saw me, not just my body. Not just what I could offer. I miss when this space felt mutual. When I felt like a real human not something to be consumed.

And honestly? I feel ashamed. Because I do genuinely care about you guys. And I know a lot of you have felt that from me over the years. Especially those of you who’ve stuck with me through different platforms and phases

But I’m incredibly burnt out. I’m not this endlessly horny, content churning fantasy girl. That’s not who I am. I’m someone who wants to give love, warmth, real connection, and support.

So here’s my question:

Do you want me back?

Because I’m ready to scrap everything—no more PPVs, no more chasing. Just a simple, honest monthly subscription where you get everything on the feed. I WILL likely create some video bundles as I have a ridiculous amount of content. This is something I’ve done since my mfc days so I’m being upfront now, that will continue! Tbh if we could just go back to doing everything from the mfc days minus the nudie live streams I’d be the happiest gal in the world lol

Let me know what you think. Or if you have other ideas. You’ve always been here for me, and I want to honor that. I want you to feel valued—not based on how much you spend, but based on your support, consistency, and trust.

Lots of love,

– Red 🩷

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Sending out BUNDLE DEALS 🥵💦💦💦 message me what you want & how..

Sending out BUNDLE DEALS 🥵💦💦💦 message me what you want & how many 😈