TW: Mental illness, attempts, police, injuries, assault. Att..

TW: Mental illness, attempts, police, injuries, assault. Attached post includes images of bruising & injuries. 🌸🌸🌸 The outpouring of messages with tips & encouraging words has me sobbing behind these glasses. I haven’t regained my vision properly since the O-D on Friday so I am having to wear these while I work. I also realise I didn’t do an update on the court case from when I was arrested during my breakdown in April. As most of you will know, I suffered a breakdown not long after I was beaten at the kill the bill protests in the UK - protests I have since been arrested for as well. A lot of you saw the injuries I sustained, including bruising all over my body and a punctured thigh where a police dog had bitten me. Not long after these attacks, I had a meltdown, and an ambulance was called and the police came to section me under the mental health act. Unfortunately I was arrested and charged for assault. This is heartbreaking. I was in a position of total vulnerability and I was criminalised when all I needed was safety & love. Anyway, the hearing was Thursday & luckily the judge was kind & understanding. I wont serve time. It is odd to me that I had good news on Thursday and then later that day made an attempt on my life. Sometimes feeling any emotion in the extreme can push us to behave in chaotic and seemingly insane ways. If I have learnt anything in the last few months it is to be patient with yourself and regularly remind yourself of how far you have come. My breakdown in April was the reason I decided to go sober, so while these past few months have been the worst of my life, I wouldn't change them. I had the longest period of sobriety ever since adulthood, I’ve made fantastic connections & have made several breakthroughs with my mental health. So, that is one court case done. I am now awaiting trial for the protests as the police feel I played a big role in the organisation of them. I remember when I first posted about this - I was traumatised. (I’ll put the link in the comments & attach it to this post) Thank you for letting me use onlyfans to get this out my system. I am recovering well from the attempt last week, and I feel mentally strong for what is to come in the next few months. April breakdown = dealt with. Protest trials = on-going. Last week’s breakdown = still recovering. Thank you for reading this and for offering me a place to vent. There are a few of you who have genuinely brought me out of depression pits, so if I can ever extend the same kindness then I am only a message away. Sex, kink & money aside, I’m glad we are all here. Original post about protest and the precursor to my mental health deterioration: https://onlyfans.com/129210754/soft_strong